No matter what, Grace, you have beauty and value as a human being. You deserve the best life possible - you deserve to be loved.
Remember that!
Alcoholism is NOT who we are - it's a condition that we happen to have in this life and it's not easy to overcome it. One day at a time, one minute at a time, hold onto hope and put one foot in front of the other.
I know I'm going on and on, but I just want the best for you.
If it's too hard with everything that's going on, look into counseling (or a psychiatrist) for help, rather than the bottle. Glad you have met some women at AA - that's wonderful!
