Originally Posted by
Wilde10 
I know it is probably the other way round- hiding just enables me to keep drinking but when I try to visualise myself telling my husband, my mother, my children that I am an alcoholic I feel extreme anxiety.
Hi Wilde,
Of course it does. I don't think you will open up to them until you really want to quit drinking.
You are not going to quit drinking, while you still think that there is an option to moderate your drinking.
So why not explore that option. I just checked and they sell that herb in Holland and Barrett for £5.99. The staff in there are usually very good at giving individual safety advice on their products.