I just like to say as a normie, as (Hevyn) puts it, yes, I agree we dont always understand, and these last two years for me have been really hard, I don't look at my AH as you have failed, I do realize this is a sickness, like cancer etc., all we can do is pray, try to show compassion & understanding, even when we just want to shake them and tell them what they are throwing away! It is the hardest for me to sit here, day in and day out and never see a change, you (((Grace))), have tried and for that I commend you, you are fighting something that is way bigger than you. Concentrate on yourself, day by day, one baby step at a time and you will get there, you've already had a practice run! Go girl, we right behind you!