The fist drink happened because I was weak and called at the off licence an bought a bottle of wine. Couldn't even wait till evening to drink it!
I am so upset at hurting my loved ones yet again! The looks on their faces says it all. I've just got home from driving round because I dreaded my partner coming home from work. He is home now, but can't even look at me and why would he even want to? I just dont know what to do any more. WHY WHY WHY did I do it again? I need to sort my life out and I'm going to try my best to do so.