I also started my "problem" drinking when I got married and had children. It was my reward at the end of a day and my medicine for anxiety, depression and insomnia. It even helped in the intimacy department. The problem is that alcohol doesn't really help at all - it makes everything worse (including the depression,anxiety, etc). It screws with every organ in our bodies, with our thinking and with our emotions.
Joleah is right - alcohol slowly takes control of our lives. All that planning, hiding, counting.......yikes.......I finally decided I'd better stop the progression before it went downhill any further. I'm glad you see your problem now and are choosing to do something about it. Hang in there and take it a day at a time.
