Hi Grace!! Please don't be too hard on yourself hun....this is a journey...not a destination.....I faultered quite a few times...I just had to say I'm sick and tired of being tired and sick!!! I have been sober almost 5 months, and still have moments where my alcoholic brains wants to drink..."just a few..you can handle it" and it drives me crazy....I just pray,pray,and pray...I don't know what your belief system is, but praying to a HP works wonders for me...also I find eating regularly helps with the cravings...peanut butter went out of my house so fast in the first couple of months!!
Wishing you peace today Grace xo