Gianna,
My experience is the same as yours. We were married for many years before I began drinking and shared everything. But my husband does not want to share this. He sees it as my problem and I need to fix it and keep it fixed. End of story. He is completely closed off as to the idea that our relationship contributed to the drinking, which it definitely did. It's frustrating and disappointing because sharing it could have brought us closer. Instead, a big part of me is shut off from him and one of the downsides of not drinking has been a distance that has developed between us. It's not something I would want to discuss every day, but the reasons why I turned to alcohol are very significant and how I moved forward is important too. It makes me feel very alone and that he doesn't accept the real me.
Love, Anna