Trish!! Great post, sweetie. Your not alone, I go back to these same particular thoughts. What my sponsor tells me is to go back to my 3rd step. By making a decision to turn my will and life over to the care of god, I'm turning everything over. That not matter what happens in my life to have faith that god has something better in store me. I know that feeling of wondering if that love will ever come back. It took me a long time to get over it, I prayed every day for this woman in my life or something better, if that's god's will for me. I still pray for knowledge of gods will for me and the power to carry that out, every day, sometimes four times a day. Keep Coming Back!