If you had NEVER taken that first drug/ drink? I think I would have stayed in the military & would have advanced myself in the medical field & done something useful with my life instead of being an alcoholic/pot head for 33 years. Could have had another career in the National Park Service ( benefits, you know), but was too drunk to go to the physical. Wen tto the local University & partyed so much I wouldn't make half the classes & flunked out after one semester. So many wasted opportunitys shot to hell. I Could'nt be considered a success by ANY standard, though by the grace of God I am at least comfortable & don't miss too many meals. STILL, it just mortifys me how I just PI**ED AWAY all of those years...............
