about to go to bed and hoping to stay sober until then. normally i would smoke and that would help me pass out. Without smoking i feel awake, which actually isn't bad considering that i never really feel 'awake'. i haven't gone without smoking for so long that i don't know what my mind will feel like not all jumbled up. will the anxiety go away, will i be able to concentrate more, will i have more energy? i sure hope so. right now i am running on fumes. i have a family to take care of and it's a little hard to do that when all i want to do is sleep, sleep, sleep. i sleep at least 9 hours at night and then nap frequently during the day. although lately i am keeping myself busy and refusing to take naps.
i hate the hold that pot has over me. i want to smoke right now but i refuse to give into the craving. i don't want it to have control over me. i want me to have control over me. it keeps my focus on it instead of everything else. it's like tunnel vision and all i see, smell, or taste is pot. anyhow, going into day 3. yea!!
anyone i know that smokes doesn't want to quit, those that have quit only did it when they were in their teens, and those that don't do it really don't understand.
thanks guys,
Audra
p.s. thanks Denise and Rowan