Go into rehab and enjoy every single moment of it.
I was only there for about 6 days (detox & rehab), but I wish I had stayed the recommended 28 days.
I felt out of place for a couple of days, but once I got to know some people there it was like home from home. At that point better actually, because people there were going through the same thing.
Concentrate on getting sober, nothing else. You'll forget about Ryan in no time, honestly you will. You'll make new friends there, people who have been through the same and some through much worse.
It will help you put things in perspective. Take inventory. I wish I would have done so at your age. Good luck and like I said enjoy.
PS: The food was fantastic
