Wow Somewhere.... so glad you didn't get hurt, or hurt anyone else when you wrecked. Even happier you decided to get help. Must've been a really smart guy you spent time with, sounds like he may have helped you get some perspective.... not to minimize that your accident could have been much worse and I know that must have been motivating too.
Grief can cause us to spin out of control really bad... I know: lost my hubby 2 yrs ago to a motorcycle accident which led me eventually to recovery - after the time I spent drinking and using drugs to numb it all.... and had relationships and awful breakups since, which, of course, only made my escaping worse.
Hope to see you around here, and look forward to you sharing all the great things recovery is doing in your life soon. hug