So sorry for you loss, please rather speak to someone, GOD doesnt punish people, HE has compassion for you. Drinking is just a bad thing to do, when you get sober all the pain will still be there, rather work your way through it, suicide will not do it either. People who break up on FB are not worth it. Please just take care of you, you need time to process all that has happened and time to heal. (((HUGS)))