This is an emergency, call someone. A doctor, your shrink, a friend or other family members. The AA hotline, the Red Cross hotline. Doesn't matter, you need to speak to someone.
Right now you are hurting so much, it's impossible to put everything in perspective.
In proportion I'm sure the loss of your uncle is having more of an impact than a man.
If he can't be there for you now when you need someone, would you really want to be with such a person.
If nothing else stay on SR, go to the chat room. Anything but being alone.
My thoughts are with you.
:ghug3