I appreciate everyone's kind words, and I know you are all right about what you are saying. I know it or I wouldn't have posted this thread. I am SO scared to be alone again, even though I did it before him. I think this is partially due to the fact that he tells me all the time how much I need him and am basically "worthless" - while I know this isn't true, I think it has eroded some of my self confidence. He blew up the other night after I posted, and I told him to get out. OF course if you have read my others posts you know this is an ongoing battle. He makes me feel very, very guilty over the whole thing - it is his trap for me. We'll see what happens...I have an exciting weekend planned with my family at my parents pool, so we'll be doing that and hopefully that will give me some time to seperate myself from the situtation. Again, thank you all for your thoughts, I really do take them to heart.