Hurt, I swear you are raising my son.
Must be something in the water around here.
I too have had the f-bomb meltdowns when the neighbors could hear, the subtle and sometimes not so subtle threats and the constant tension in the home. I too had to hear others challenge him with idle threats when all I wanted was some peace.
Finally, I have a little of that peace I've been trying to achieve. AS is out of the home, and has been for a few months. Its a first for us, and trust me, I waited six years for the calm to return to my home. My home is now the sanctuary it once was. I now have no clue why I waited so long.
Hang in there, sooner or later something has got to give
(((Hugs)))