the thought of leaving him is easier said than done. i am in love with this man, and he is a great person.
We're all here because most of us feel this way. Maybe click on my name and read my initial posts when I first came here? I know it's confusing, but keep posting, keep sorting things etc. My Xah was/is the greatest WHEN he's clean. When he's not it's just empty promises, broken promises, lies, manipulation, words of love, words of praise to me. None of it is real though. With addiction, NONE of his words are REAL.
When I first came here I thought most people on SR just didn't understand my situation. "my addict" was not like the other addict/junkies out there. Turns out I was wrong. Welcome - the only thing that I can say is read, read, read. Go to a meeting if you can, read the stickies etc. When I first came here like 2 years ago I was he(( bent on fixing him and I wouldn't accept anything less. Didn't happen @ all the way I thought it would.
