thank you for the kind words. the thought of leaving him is easier said than done. i am in love with this man, and he is a great person. he is good to me and my children, he treats them like they are his own. he has never done anything to hurt them. he has never been abusive to me, and i know abuse quite well due to past relationships. i spoke to him on the phone earlier and he keeps promising things will be better, but i had to keep telling him that he has said all this before and he has destroyed my trust. he asks why he is in the psych ward trying to get help if we aren't going to be together, so i (again) asked if he wanted to get better. he says he does. blah, i don't know. i hate being this confused.