I had to be tested a few years back because of a guy I once dated. He was not an addict, but he was HIV positive (he did not know when we were together). Luckily everything turned out ok, but just having to tell someone that in this day and age I had unprotected sex made me feel like such an moron. I live about 20 minutes from Boston, and vacation in Maine every summer! I will think of you the next time I am sitting on the beach! lol You are doing the right thing taking care of yourself, you are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for.