That's an interesting thought, Faulty. As an adult that must have taken some working through on your part.
As a mom myself, I have a feeling that both loved you in their own way.
The important thing is to love yourself. Life hands us what it hands us, but in the end we survive and we thrive if we live for the future and let the past rest.
You can't change a day of what happened to you, but the future is all yours to write as you wish.
Hugs