Hello all! Sorry I haven't posted for a few days. It's 7 days today clean and sober today!! Yipee!
Yesterday was one of those days where your nerves feel like they are getting tightened with a screw-driver more and more every few minutes. I did something amazing -- I picked up the phone and told someone about it. It actually helped. Even wilder -- (with 25 yrs.) called me that and we held each other mutual hostage until our cell phone batteries were dying.
Today -- I feel oh-so-much better. And wouldn't you know it? The topic at the noon meeting was about "Finding Peace". I kinda laughed. I don't think that is a real goal for me right now. I'm still too stuck in that "fix me RIGHT NOW" thinking so typical of us addicts/alcoholics.
My thinking is a little perverse sometimes. It's like I forget the serenity prayer after the first line (God, Grant me the Serenity. Now.)