yay! thanks for this thread!
just so happens i went on a run this morning for the first time in....a year?
it felt so good!
this evening i went out with friends, got the giggles, and have never been happier to come home to my small tiny cozy little apt.
i don't know why i'm so afraid of taking care of me and letting go of him, but every time i take good quality care of myself, i smile more and enjoy this short life even more than i expected.