Originally Posted by mentallyexh

SO....I posted the letter I wrote to AH, and his responses. Now here it is..my guilt, which I know is in my head and I have to own! Why is it that although I KNOW that I am doing the right thing......that the reality of it is SO hard. I don't want to hurt my AH...but I really can't live with him the way it is - so how do I come to terms with what I feel and my guilt???? The list I get that...why I have to do it. WHen I have doubts I just go look at all the posts I have written here in the past year...then I remember how painful our relationship has been and how I can't go on that way!!!