I really dont know, i think about him every second of everyday but i know i couldnt bear to have him back in my life the way he is and we have had a long time apart now and when i see him i do just feel anger.
I also feel sad when i see him because i cannot believe how he is acting.
He has even told one person that we are still together and that he would die for me.
I know he is drunk constantly and that i should just ignore what he sais,but i cant seem to break off what little contact i still have with him even if it isnt direct contact.