It's really interesting to me that you say you have a "feeling" that you're going to get sucked back in. It's so funny to me, because I've felt the exact same way, but when you hear someone else say it, you realize how silly it is to say, "I have a feeling I'm going to make the choice to do this thing that I don't want to do." You know what I mean? It just made me realize what I'm saying when I say this about myself.