On day 4 today.......
Have an appointment with my doctor in a couple of hours and know she will want to put me on antidepressants which I think is probably a good plan.
Hopefully it will curb the anxiety as well.
Physically I feel tired and headachy and a little anxious, but not too hard to handle.
I am scared, scared of me if that makes any sense........I just don't trust myself anymore. I will be going along fine and confident about my sobriety and then for a very small reason my thinking will switch in the blink of an eye and before I know it, I am at the bottle shop thinking I am normal Yes I can drink normally.....I will only have half a bottle (that's normal surely) and yes the inevitable happens......oops the bottles gone.....but I am just starting to feel fine and ironically (healthy) again......better get another bottle so I can sleep etc........
Just giving an example of my inner workings go.......yes the insanity, the merry-go-round........
Just for today.........will be praying alot this arvo....