Back to day 3, and starting to move past the relapse a bit...
Thank you all so very much for your words of understanding and encouragement. I am starting very slowly to forgive myself, and to realize that God spared my life for a reason. I am not trying to be melodramatic here, but honestly, waking up only to realize I threw up apparently while passed out was very frightening and bewildering. Such an ugly extreme (and first time ever happening after years of drinking) after nearly 4 months being completely sober.
I really just wanted to just check in, let you know I'm ok, and thank you all so much. Your kindness means so much. I hope that perhaps someone thinking about drinking again might have read my post, and decided, "ah...maybe not today..."
Peace and hugs to all.