Sharon, I like your posts because you're so good with honesty in what you write.
I didn't have a similar unbringing to my mind, but I do remember a few isolated cases of hitting that come to mind every once in a while. Since I quit drinking in Nov, I have probably thought about these memories more often though, at least once a month, possibly more. And the rebelliousness spoke to me just now, because I was in a cantankerous mood earlier.
The problem I had with growing up was more like the semi-absence of my parents. They didn't get very involved with me, at least that's how I see it. When I became of adult age, they died, so I felt like I didn't resolve anything and I was somehow supposed to be an adult, which I'd been really enthused about reaching! I reached adulthood but didn't know what to do with it and didn't know what I wanted or even have anyone to compare myself to or please or disappoint anymore. Alcohol use gradually became a tool for me to use to ward off feelings like I didn't have it together, and as I became more capable of living a life, the alcohol stayed in the picture (of course!). It "helped" with an identity crisis, I suppose. But work has been all I care about. The crisis has been not being satisfied with whatever I looked like to me (I guess that's one of the reasons I chose the Michael Jackson photo recently for my avatar recently; plus I was tired of having a blank).
So I understand rebelliousness in my own way. I am working on finding a new job that will work for me, and I am really mindful of how I will react in the future, now that I am not drinking (how I will make sure I continue not to drink - etc).
I focus on making the best of what I have going for me, and so far I have the last word on my alcoholism
Thanks a lot.