"This isn't even fun anymore."
Yep, that's how I started feeling towards the end of my 'drinking career'. I'd drink "one last time" and not enjoy it, of course followed with shame, guilt, and a hangover not even worth the terrible time I had. Finally enough was enough, and I haven't regretted one single night of not drinking yet!
I'm glad you're here, post often, read often.. there's lots of experience and hope here.