Hi SizzleChest -
Welcome!!!
Zowie!!! China... truly a world away from Montana ... LOL!
Here's some things *I* did in early recovery
that I hope will help you -
I thought of it in relationship to all my senses... so forgive how it's laid out -
AUDIO
It was a tremendous help for me to play 'Speaker tapes' durning my early recovery -
to hear the voices as I went to sleep
and as I woke up helped keep me rooted in AA
and kept every aspect of my life at the time
coming from a place of sobriety.
Maybe visit AA.org to see what's available that you can download and play?
VISUAL
I drove to work a LONG way around 'bar alley' to get to my new non-alcohol job.
I got rid of EVERRYTHING that reminded me of bars.
(I'd been a bartender close to 10 yrs.)
The biggest thing is to remember
even if you have to write it on the palm of your hand -
THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
When the obsession hits -
it will pass
if you only be still for a bit
and congratulate yourself on not drinking.
Get up and clean
brush your teeth
light some incense
pop a piece of candy
do a puszzle
but trust yourself that THE FEELING WILL PASS.
You never have to go through this again.