Welcome, Kru!
Congratulations on your decision to take your life back and be pro-active in seeing a counselor. Mine saved my life.
Try not to worry about the forever living without alcohol noise in your head - that will only sabotage your efforts. Focus on where you're at, right now.
As long as you do that, remain willing to try and open-minded to suggestions, things will become clear to you.
Glad you're here. You can do this. You're not alone.