I think we all reach that day early on where it is our breaking point....Oh I can't do this. I have had so many like that over the years I can't count. This is why all booze should be dumped from the house completely....I don't care if it is an extract or even Nyquil. Just get rid of it. When you feel that you make a drink run ignore it and do not go near that liquor store or aisle.
I have fallen so many times over the years I can not count. When I first found SR in January I made it almost 3 months before my relapse and after that bender I dumped the booze again, learning from it and sober again.
Take recovery one day at time and if you fall.....well dust off reset your sober clock and begin again and learn from it. You will get it my friend as you definitely are committed to it.....
Good Luck!