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Old 04-23-2010, 04:01 PM
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adore79
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‎Friday, ‎23 ‎April, ‎2010
When did i start planning to drink?

Looking for a chance to drink is always at the back of my mind. Sometimes it will hit me hard, like it did yesterday. Id been saving money for weeks for it.

What convinced me to take the step to buy alcohol?

I had enough money, free time and I thought i could get away with it without anyone knowing.

When was the moment i felt there was no going back?

In the morning I thought about asking my Mom for some money (which i would have used to buy beer). I didnt ask because I knew she would say no anyway. This make me mad and I got determined to drink.

What did i think drinking would do for me?
Escape from everything for a while, a short period of euphoria.

What did drinking actually do for me? Did it meet my expectations?
Made me feel like crap. Lethargic and icky. Made me sleepy. Didnt make me euphoric. Kinda helped me escape from everything, but made me feel regretful afterwards.

What could have happened:
Could have been caught and sent to jail.

How can i prevent this from happening next time i want to drink?
Call my friend first or post on sr.
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