I was thinking back on my alcohol use over the years, kinda viewing things through the knowledge I've gained talking to you guys, reading about alcoholism, and so on, and I kinda startled myself. Denial is a powerful thing, apparently. I've felt so helpless the last 20 years, and never realized the role alcohol played in that. I really drank alot more than I gave myself credit for. Alot more. For example, about 10 years ago, I homebrewed, making 5 gallons of beer every weekend. That's like 2 cases of beer (high alcohol content, the way I liked it) a week, and I found room for it. Yet I didn't think I was an alcoholic.
It's funny how being honest with yourself about just one thing can change the entire world.
Rev