I have to say, that when I first started my recovery, every single emotion that I experienced was under a microscope. I was constantly investigating why I was feeling things, whether it was right or wrong, okay or not okay for me to feel the emotions, etc. I was over analyzing every single thing that I was feeling. It took me a while to not be so hard on myself, and to understand that feeling things is okay, learning to control how long we feel certain things, and how we react when we are feeling them, that is the key to recovery.
I worry about my loved ones all the time. Is my grandmother getting enough excersize? Is my sister working too hard? Is my dog happy?
I don't let these emotions ruin my day of course. I acknowledge what I am feeling, look inside myself to see why I am feeling those emotions, and then contact those people and remind them that I love them. That's all I do. I don't think that is codie behavior. I think that is love.
Keep pedaling, keep pedaling
