Hi SomeoneSomewhere
I look at your story - you got transported last night after drinking a pint of whiskey and breaking your wrist. .24 on the BAL screening, you dont remember the whole night, the hospital staff are urging you to get help...your life sucks and you're drinking, a lot every day, to get numb and forget.
I think you do need help, yes.
I nearly died from my drinking and this fits me as perfectly as anything else I've ever read here.
I drink a lot, like every day but that's only because I am trying to numb things out. I have a lot going on and I've been stressed and drinking makes me feel better/care less/forget.
It's obvious you have a lot of stuff going on emotionally but drinking is not the way to fix it SS.
Please - speak with your therapist about this.
Don't let yourself be fooled by the cross talk in your head.
If you really honestly think you're not dependent on alcohol? Try not drinking for 30 days.
I hope you stick around Someone Somewhere.
You'll find a lot of support and encouragement here
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