Hi misha, sending hugs and support. Separations are tough especially when they have been traumatic or done great damage. Mourning is normal, is healthy and expected and needed. I personally wouldn't be alone with that guy. And I congratulate you for your decisions.
Master manipulators are like that.They will say or do anything just to get what they want. The only way to win? not playing. No contact.
Do you trust HP/God? work on your trust and fears of the future will subside. No one knows what will happen. But HP has your back and gave you bravery and intelligence to do what you did. Those traits will help you if you need to protect yourself in any future situation. Chances are he will see you are not joking and get someone else who will buy his BS. Gladly it will happen in an alternate universe where you no longer reside and gets further away each day that passes.
And the air will be more fresh, the sun will be more bright and the flowers will be more colorful.
Its just a tunnel, there's light at the end. Much light, love, compassion, peace, forgiveness, smiles, growth, great moments and presents that were always yours- you just didn't want to unwrap them then. But now its time to receive all that is good. ALL the good that life has in store for you. Why? easy, because you deserve it.
