Hi again
Counselling may help...so may AA, or some other recovery programme. Here a few links
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...resources.html
There's also options like inpatient or outpatient rehab...your doctor may have some other ideas.
I'm sure others here may have ideas too.
You're not rubbish - you're addicted. Maybe you're underestimating how much you need to work at this? I know I did.
It's really hard to change your life.
You really need to be committed, and be prepared to work hard, and you really need to cultivate some kind of support network.
It's a truism to say nothing changes if nothing changes.
I looked back and I can see a lot of ambivalence in your posts. You want to quit for your son, for sure, but how much do you want to quit for you?
It's worth thinking about.
I know one thing - it never gets better...it only gets worse.
But it is possible - entirely possible - and you're not alone here
Welcome back
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