Wendy, I think relapsing is probably pretty normal. This is only the first time I have tried to go more than 2 weeks without. Maybe you can dissect why you are upset with yourself, put down all the positives and negatives you can think of about drinking. That would be a way of taking the good out of the experience of gong back to drinking this past month. Having gone for 6 months would be something to build on, because you've seen you have the ability to do it. There must be something that requires change in your life though in order to maintain it - on any given day - so that it is not just abstaining until the next time you give in. I am not necessarily sure I have it figured out, but I do observe my thinking behaviour when I become exasperated or defeatist or become tempted to snuggle up to nostalgia that goes nowhere. It's like coming out of the warm shower with nothing to cover with sometimes when I try to think the "proper" way and avoid these familar traps.