Hi wendyjane
For me, I could never quite let go of the idea that one day I'd be able to control my drinking and be like everyone else.
It took me 20 years to accept the fact I'm not like everyone else
I've been in recovery now 3 years or so - the difference has been not only have I accepted I can't drink, but I've done a lot more than just not drink.
I'm happy living this way - I want to be who I am now....and I think, for me, that's the key
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