I am lame and weak.
No, you are human, and hurting.
I have one ovary that is fibroid, so, every other period is like h*ll for me.
I don't know how old you are, but I had a laproscopic surgery to remove my ovaries. It lasted a couple hours, two tiny scars, but then went into menopause. I figured I was going to hit menopause eventually anyway, this just accelerated it. Don't know how horribly this affects your life, but just thinkin...
My son just thinks his dad is great, and he has not seen him in over a month.
Your young son's eyes will be opened one day. That's the nature of this, and his need to believe his dad is all that. And then he will also know how dedicated and sane you were.
Peace,