great to hear from you!
of course it's hard,
and it's going to keep ON being hard,
I'm sorry to say...
but Deb, you're not alone.
And I second Mike's thought -
you're the mother you never had.
Let this time be a cleansing one.
When my bf died
I 'went off men' for a year.
I just .. didn't want one.
I wanted to heal up
try to figure out stuff....
but wound up drinking myself nearly to death.
but good for you to be doing the work I should have.
I think everything you spoke of is 'natural'
but ALL of it showed growth and determination.
how great of you to come by !