(((Trish))) I am sorry you are hurting, especially with such an important person in your life..
Information comes in many forms to us, and can cause us so much pain sometimes, but in my experience, always becomes key in me moving forward, for my highest good, once I have managed to process it all...
Our lives change in recovery, and our eyes open to things that have always been there.
You are strong and have good recovery and I know you will use this information for your highest good..
Gentle hugs and prayers