WOW! That is awesome that you are doing this. Congrats on having the courage to speak with your Dr. you have to SAVE YOURSELF FROM YOURSELF. I had to have the talk with my Dr as well and I had to tell my fiance all my little ways of getting my DOC (drug of choice) and i found myself very hesitant at times. Ultimately had I not done that there is no doubt in my mind I would have relapsed already. It isnt easy by any frikn means but when you start to wake up in the morning feeling energized and can walk outside and the beautiful sun shining makes you want to cry cause it feels so good to feel you then realize it was all worth it! Good Luck and keep up the awesome work!!!! Maybe hit up some NA meetings, they really work! When i first walked into a meeting I thought OOOOOOOK this is weird but you know what if it works who cares!?!