ive hit a slump, i dont do anything these days. My best friend is the only thing that keeps me going, and my love for him otherwise i would have given up. i think i need a med adjustment but i dont know. maybe the coming summer weather will help? i live in an imaginary world but its easier than facing reality. im stable though, my life is stable, which is good. i feel like im teetering on the edge of that stablility all the time. im mostly sober, but i get no credit for that, the only time i get attention is when i mess up. ive been warned about being on disablitlity and doing nothing, it makes you more disabled.