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i got drunk one night and got in a big argument with my folks, threw a bowl of salad on the floor, etc... acted like an idiot pretty much. The next day they went and told my probation officer about it. i am trying to forgive them but i dont know if i can, they want to see me in jail, they have said as much. if i screw up again it means jail time. but ive been doing really well, ive slipped a few times but not bad, i rarely think of alcohol anymore but sometimes the urge hits me like a hammer. im on disability for mental illness and my monthly check goes straight to my folks, so i rarely see money, they keep me away from it for fear i will drink it. i feel degraded and less than a human.