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dedubya I get no enjoyment, actually mostly pain, from alcohol.
I can relate to that. The last few years of my daily drinking were nothing but a pit of pain and despair. Why do so many of us alcoholics inflict this upon ourselves? Why do you do it? Clearly, as was the case with me, there might be underlying issues at work here, don't you think?
While you still seem to be holding family and job together, from what I read elsewhere, in my experience, you're getting dangerously close to crossing an invisible line. What kinds of fears are getting in the way of you making a healthier choice for sobriety?
I only ask these questions because reading your posts is like looking at myself in a mirror eight years ago, and I wouldn't wish what I lived through on my worst enemy.