MaryRita - it's wonderful you've joined us. After I found SR I no longer felt alone, and got the courage to stop a 25 year habit. I was drinking round the clock in the end, totally miserable and sick. It was no longer fun or relaxing - it was sucking the life out of me. We use it to comfort us, and it does just the opposite.
I know what you mean about the isolation - I had used alcohol to feel less shy, but in the end I had no interest in going anywhere or socializing. I had created a living hell for myself and could not see the way out. Please do not lose heart - I am now over 2 yrs. sober after never imagining my life without it! You can do this - please keep posting.