DMKK
Nothing wrong with missing the good times. Please try to understand it this way. She has a problem, one she doesn't want to deal with. The bottle like it or not came before you and everyone else. It 100% sucks but it is HER issue and nothing personal, as it is something she hasn't/doesn't want to deal with yet. She has some really crappy times on the way. Remember the good times and pray for her wellness every night as she needs it. I know you hurt but TRUST me this will help mend you and might help her.
AG