(((Dubs)))
Can you see your doctor about getting some detox meds? Do you feel like that's something you could manage at home? Could your wife be willing to keep an eye on you and control the meds?
I worry so much for you. I don't want you and your family to have to deal with a stroke. An acquaintance of mine had a stroke and is unable to move her left side. I don't what that for you!
Please, do what it takes.
Love,
Lenina